Keep Me In Your Heart at least for a moment, hold it and own it as the moment can pass you by. Cherish our time together. This moment will pass in the blink of an eye. Remember me, when I am but a glimmer in the back of your memories, hold me, remind yourself always to keep me as a pendant near your heart. The moonlight strolls, our walks around our park will serve as a testament to our time together, never forget it was real, the moment you own and keep in your heart will make you whole. Our five hour long conversations, and the silliness of the things we shared, the moments we connected will remind you that I carry you in my heart and are a better man for it.
For three rounds we pushed and pulled each other to be better, the sound was all we had to bind us as the sound of our voices echoed firmly to the backdrop of our song. I want nothing from you, all I ask is that you honor this request; remember me when you are afraid, overcome with tears, remember me when you laugh uncontrollably, remember me when you are strong. When you feel weak, remember the moment is dismal in the timeline of your life. The power of my words are just a reminder that all your fears will one day pass, your dreams will never fade.
The energy in your heart, the flame of your love never let it fade, keep that fire lit, as I will always be next to you. Hold me in your heart, I will watch you in your dreams, the courage in my heart I give it on to you as you move through changing all those around you for the better. When the day comes and you see that I am gone never think that I love you any less. Remember me when you look up at the sky and the crazy sun warms your skin. At times when you fall down, broken and afraid, remember there is someone who is your biggest fan, one who will never judge, and I will be right next to you…
When you feel broken, and alone, remember the million little pieces that are scattered all around, the pieces of my heart, small shards of me. Remember me, and fight as you kick and scream, be the voice for those who can’t speak, be the strength for those that are weak, let each piece of me remind you that your heart is strong. Remember me is the voice that resonates from what is left from my silly little heart………
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Fear of Heights
Roller coasters have an uncanny ability to change what you feel in an instant. The rush of speed, jarring motions or the cars as they glide along the tracks, all leading to an unexpected turn at any given moment. Even some of us who are afraid of heights commit to riding these from time to time, it feels good to release and go along with something that we innately have zero control over, we do hand over our very existence to a complete stranger. Sadly, the rush of life dwindles down the second we step off the ride. It is at that moment when the fundamental bullshit in life takes is over and injects fear into our veins and poisons the very core we strive to protect.
Society brainwashes people to seek the impossible dream of being completely submerged in love, when in reality most fall deeply in lust. Don’t get me wrong, lust is wonderful when we are willing to face it for what it really is. The complication’s in life take place when we as individuals lie to ourselves by being stuck in a point in life that is long gone and should be sincerely forgotten. Experience has proved to offer the best lessons in life. Living a life with regrets is only a new excuse to rob yourself of the life you can create, this will only happen when we take our head out of our collective asses.
Through the years many of the men and women I have met are hung up on a past triumph, success, or even relationship. This has led me to believe that innately, we are all primates still holding onto one branch before reaching for another. The funny thing is that most refuse to let go of all that they were holding onto, this stops forward momentum; if you have watched the discovery channel enough you will understand the monkey will fall from the tree and die at the very moment it loses its forward momentum. This is a key factor in life. Have you ever loved and lost and wondered why it happened to me? Simple, you were only existing in your mind, the relationship was not good enough to begin with. All the things that made a relationship “perfect” are the same things that put a humongous rift between the two in the first place. It seems people get so caught up in politeness, there is never anything to challenge the relationship itself. When something does, the relationship becomes a thing of the past that should be as extinct as the dinosaur itself.
Men and women are always going back to rekindle an old flame and 10/10 the relationship fails. Guess what, it is not science, the relationship sucked in the first place; you were just full of shit, mind-fucking yourself into believing it was great. In the desert, this effect is called a mirage. And as such, volatile relationships, or those that are hung up on politeness are the clear signs that something is wrong, this is usually when life gently nods you on the side indicating it is time to eject. Realistically, the person you dated never got it right in the first place, more than likely they never will, they just have no idea what the fuck to do. It is always safer to jump back to something that is known than to venture out into the unknown.
History teaches us that pioneers and visionaries have never played by the rules, venturing out into what is new, unknown and scary is the very air that breathes life to these valiant few. An extraordinary mindset will align everything in the universe for one single purpose, your happiness. So live brave, never too proud to be weak, speak with love, live with passion, lust your self and love will find the way into your heart.
Take a leap of faith … Into the unknown and never be afraid of falling….
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Gasping for air I find myself wondering where did it all spiral out of control. A chosen few to lead the many with a simple withered heart, a character so weak as to be unable to process a simple exchange of words without extracting the deeper meaning from the marrow of it’s core. Hello means hi how are you in a world where such things are as trivial as a napkin that surrounds a soda can at the local food mart. Cancer, guns, people with irate nature high on the drug of choice can’t bring me doen, yet a fabricated lie spun so out of proportion to make even the slimiest politician proud makes me sick to the core can. Topple me down like a string of carefully crafted dominoes in this game we call life. Invulnerable as a tank seldom demonstrating any opening for a weakness, my life buried in books to show as little emotion as possible, contain every emotion as deep to keep people at bay. This is not as powerful as a woman with an illusion. Expressing emotion is a lost art, vaguely insulting to most, acting a fool with regards to everything a tank invulnerable to everything and nothing at once. Beautifully broken from all the god-dammed emotions kept at bay from the work, cruised along through life, not knowing the change before me. My heart breaks in so many places weak in every action taken. They say words spoken can never be taken back, can you un-love someone, can you un-feel heart ache. Writing is so painful and it feels like scabs healing from a wound with each time a layer coming off to reveal the burning scalding pain of sweat profusely brewing in it’s place. Has emotion ever encompassed you to a point where breathing hurts? Welcome to my reality
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At a time that seems like a lifetime ago the thought of falling in love seemed amazing, and the essence of what composed character consisted of what was pure and innocent. The living embodiment of what it is to be enveloped by love of another. The rhythm of love replaced by the cadence of sarcasm and a disenchanted heart.There comes a time when you meet people who are like a tornado that come into your life swirl your life with their brilliant colors. The colors that set you free with their brightness and delight.
There I was a man on a boat adrift in the emptiness of my thoughts. The place that had become safe; my domain where I could build all the walls and keep people at bay. Sarcasm my main language, a keen eye that goes hand in hand with an ability to dissect human interaction and behavior down to the molecule that motivates it. A coward with a fearless side who is always the first to jump into danger. Always looking for that adrenaline rush, to make up for the fact he refuses to feel anything even remotely close to an emotional connection. Now here lies the conundrum when a ragtag group of characters come across the timeline of life.
The few who live life in their own way to the fullest and none alike in anyway yet like lost souls whose magnetic energy brings all together to a strong foundation. A foundation composed of the lustful seductress whose way of looking at the interaction between men and women as clear to her as the stop sign on each and every corner. This energy comes from her desire to simply enjoy life to the fullest and in it’s most passionate form. Fortunate, a man or woman who comes across this maternal figure who is strong and fearless yet sweet and vulnerable.
The energetic lightning bolt whose energy illuminates the room. The little spark who cuts across the whole room cuts past my own darkness to fill overload even the coldest of hearts with her warmth and love. Always missing the obvious; it is her energy that makes everyone feel better. Ultimately if that doesn’t work, quick to splash water on you and say snap out of it. This is a simplistic way of saying we love you, there is no need for you to live in your head anymore. This duo would not be complete without the woman with the gleam in her eye. The dirty sexual undertone with every nuance of her being, the horny princess who hides behind her smile all while urging the sultriness to permeate the air. Energizing the air with the smell of sex at all times. My universe wouldn’t be complete without the jumping little woman who bounces around the room like a playful kitten always looking for that spec of dust or string to jump after. A cataclysm of emotions who can bring you to the peak of happiness, of bury your heart when tears stream down her caramel colored cheeks.
If at any point in my life the question would have been posed as to who the perfect women is: the answer would have been naive and perhaps the name of a porn star, actress or singer would have come to mind. As the maturity of life hits me the question has but a simple answer: they all are… and in their perfection I strive to do the same everyday……
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When you get past the other side of the bullshit that life throws at you, the clarity of the desire to have someone beside you when the world is kicking your ass becomes crystal clear. With so many options, choices, and distractions, how will you know the direction of your emotions. Life doesn’t get easier by wishing it so. It is better when you accept that having the right person in your life means so much than the ecstasy of a moment. Embrace that you look forward to that person who has your back. Secretly, every woman is looking for that MAN who has the courage to setup up to the plate and say, “I got this, you are safe with me.” Always reassuring her that he will protect, comfort, honor her, and rejoice when she is in her self discovery mode. All along, he is secretly longing to feel wanted, needed, and inspired to be the better version of himself. You can call that shit love, it is merely the desire for something better than a relationship. It’s the total package.
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